my post in year 2009

I missed my China journey. i wish i can go back to those time again. however, life still goes on. i do not have a lot to update regarding travel tales. so as of now, just update when something meaningful or disastrous happened in my life...

i will, again go for such trip if time and opportunity permits. i will grab whatever opportunity for me to see the world again, for me to get in touch with my inner self again. but i must repair myself beforehand. i mean repair myself physically before i can go around on my feet again...

Any day will be special as long as you think it is

5th August 2008

A day like any other ordinary day.

It has been quite sometime since i log in to blog. As mentioned, i am not a blogger, more of a person who enjoys writing journal than electronic stuffs.

last year this time, i am in Tibet, celebrating my 30th birthday..its quite an interesting feeling, celebrating the crossing of the 'bar' in another foreign land.

I could still remember the musical candle with sparkers, shaped like a lotus flower and the gigantic cream cake bought for me by a local Tibetan (see picture above). i reminded myself that i will just try to finish the cake to show my appreication and gratitute and portray myself as a good Singaporean who will not allow any food gone to waste....

and as i was eating the cake and glad that the day was celebrated, i am thinking...why this day is special? as any other ordinary day, it is just the same as like any other days for many billions of people around the world. This could be a day when someone lost his or her beloved partner, or it could be a day when someone in the world is reminded of bad memories.

People are still going to office to work, people are still rushing to and fro during peak working hours...people are still dying everywhere...lives of everyone still goes on...

I reckon that the birthday of everyone, is a day, to celebrate that you are born on this Earth with a divine purpose planned at the very beginning. it is a day to do a self-check (although we should be doing that regularly..haha), a day to ask yourself, have you do what you are suppose to do? have you fulfilled your life purposes, to touch others and to share the joy with others?

it might just be any other ordinary day to many others, but for myself, a day to reflect and check back on what i have been doing for the past 1 year. and as each birthday passes, and as i aged, i began to celebrate that i am still as healthy as previous year and i will not take that for granted.

i am blessed with many friends, who are always there for me..who stay with me through thick and thin. i am thankful to God, who give me this special day to be able to serve Him. Every year on this day, is a day for me to become closer who i gonna be.

Any day will be special, as long as we think it is...

Words from Mother Teresa

There were a few books i brought along with me throughout my trip in China. there are also some books i bought during my journey too. two of my favourite reads: a biography of Mother Teresa and Helen Keller.

The number of books i've read during my trip is more than the books i've read for the past 30 years of my life. but then again, i am a 'forced to read' kind of person. i am not those who will pick up book to read automatically unless i really have nothing to do, which is seldom the case...

I just don't know why i am always busy when i am around with friends and family in Singapore. My friends told me i have too many obligations. i agree. at the end of the day, i will always ask myself, what am i busy with and why am i so busy? I am in search for the answer as well...and at the end of the day, i have to account my time to God. i want to be busy with doing the work for Him.

Just to make use of this moment to share with you what i came across in a book of Mother Teresa:

"In the developed countries there is a poverty of intimacy, a poverty of spirit, of loneliness, of lack of love. And there is no greater sickness in the world today than all these...

There are many kinds of poverty. Even in countries where the economic situations seems to be good one, there are expressions of poverty hidden in a deep place, such as tremendous loneliness of people who have been abandoned and who are suffering."