I told a lot of my friends that I really enjoyed my time here in China alone. Everyone couldn’t believe me at all, especially those who have known me for years. I am a person who loves to talk and always talked non stop…loudly. That’s me. So, when I am alone, a lot of my close friends will think that I cannot survive, or that it will take me a lot to overcome the loneliness.
In fact, I really enjoyed my time to myself. Its a kind of freedom that I think one should experience spending time to yourself. I see more of myself, I talk to myself. There was a while that I was in silence for so long, that I had almost forgotten what my own voice sounded like. But, that was also the time that I hear more and noticed more around me.
Solitude is something that I yearned for. I finally realized that, and every one of us will need that time to ourselves. Imagine you woke up to the day knowing that you had it to yourself, and not sharing with anyone else. You can do whatever you like, not having the notion of pleasing people. When you walked on the street, you no need to care about anything or anybody because everyone is just a stranger to you. I appreciate that kind of freedom. I felt like I have disappeared from the surface of the Earth.
I came to know that inside of us, there lives an angel and a devil and that their voices are very alike. Solitude and loneliness can get me confused sometimes.
However, I know the balance between solitude and dependence. Sometimes, I really craved to have someone by my side for me to lean on, but that cannot be a stumbling block for me. Neither will I act tough to be that independent. Thus, no complains from me, for being alone because, I know that while I am enjoying the freedom, I always have someone watching over my back from above.
Solitude is something that I yearned for. I finally realized that, and every one of us will need that time to ourselves. Imagine you woke up to the day knowing that you had it to yourself, and not sharing with anyone else. You can do whatever you like, not having the notion of pleasing people. When you walked on the street, you no need to care about anything or anybody because everyone is just a stranger to you. I appreciate that kind of freedom. I felt like I have disappeared from the surface of the Earth.
I came to know that inside of us, there lives an angel and a devil and that their voices are very alike. Solitude and loneliness can get me confused sometimes.
However, I know the balance between solitude and dependence. Sometimes, I really craved to have someone by my side for me to lean on, but that cannot be a stumbling block for me. Neither will I act tough to be that independent. Thus, no complains from me, for being alone because, I know that while I am enjoying the freedom, I always have someone watching over my back from above.
It is always good to learn to make use of solitude and not used by it.
