After so long...

I have not been writing for quite a while. I have thoughts flowing through my head but nowadays I somehow cannot let them out with words. So the thoughts just remained inside my head and constantly flowing to my heart, just like stream of blood, constantly going in and out of the heart. The thoughts, sometimes, when they are out, I am fine, other time when they are in and when they reached my heart, it stings and bites.

Would like to spend some time writing about a friend, who left my life in 2011. It has been 2 years, yet I am still struggling to get over it completely. How long does one take to reconcile a relationship? Months, years, or a lifetime? Although physical departure is depressing, perhaps emotional departure is the one that kills.

I missed my friend, and the time we spent together serving God, working out and traveling to see the world. I once thought we can spar with each other ideas and dreams and thoughts and keep each other moving in God's plans and ways. Yet, the separation came before any of these long term ambition can be fulfilled.

I once chanced upon this article, " Death is not the ultimate loss, rather it's the separation from loved ones that is so difficult. Knowing about someone's continued existence but being unable to share it with them may cause far more pain and make resolution far more difficult than permanent separation through death. With those who have died, however, we find new ways to share their existence as they live on in our hearts and memories."

Death takes away a life, but not a relationship. But separation does.